Who Am I?

I'm realizing how much I've changed Over these last few years From what I wear, to how I style my hair To the guys I take interest in. It seems like looks are becoming a priority While all it does is cover who I am. I'm starting to connect with the world More than I connect with my heavenly Father. Trying to balance the double life of being a teenage Christian, Who goes to school where Christianity is like a minority, Not many really care for it. Being all religious at church Then in the outside world turn around And become someone completely new. The person covered by a media controlled shell. I'm not talking possession, but mind re-arrangement. Lately I've been questioning what's real, I know God is, but why do so many think otherwise. What blinds their eyes that doesn't blind mine. Maybe one day they'll realize. Well till then I still have this lingering question, Who am I? Why am I not the person i want to be. Why am I becoming like everyone else. Why do things go the opposite of the way I intended. When is life gonna be on my side What is it going to take for things to go right Do I have to change who I am? But if I do will I ever discover whats really inside Who am I?