Who Am I?

Who am I to tell you that you are a bad mother and who am I to say that you didn't know what you were doing even though all you did was tell me you hate me leaving me alone in this world without a motherly figure when everyone else around me has one and I just have to watch and stare with this sadness in my heart telling me it's all my fault even though my brain is telling me I didn't do anything but I can't control the power that's behind you forcing me to feel like I suck because you are the person that gave birth to me the one that was supposed to show me all of the affection that I sometimes believe I deserve and now this bi-polar attitude I have come to develop and all this depression that comes from within I know is from you but who am I to say that it is all your fault when everything happens between two or more people what am I supposed to do what am I supposed to believe I don't even know who I am anymore because I can't control my mind you turned me into this questioning human being and when I'm depressed all I can say is who am I because I don't even know who my mother is or where she is or what shes doing or if she really hates me like she says she does its all just a mystery I'm never going to solve because you won't let me fix it you won't let me repair my mind what mind where is it where am I who am I.