Who are you not to be

I took a step back and I bounced back, do not hack these codes you see me here looking through the clouds. Tell him to shout and run while your face is pointed towards the blazing sun. Who are you not to be. Light goes to darkness, the light shining just as bright as the sun. A touch to touch, a breath to breathe… You tell me not to feel but feelings are what makes us alive or feeling broken inside. This in too can be deadly. Listen you caused me to have these feelings being around toxic situations that causes me to feel vulnerable. Your right was returned, my words disabled. Now I don’t want to feel anything at all. But how many of you can stand up and say this. Why reconcile with the devil’s way and make up your own throne down that long, dark hall leading to the dungeons of hell. You know it’s funny how we have to use substances these days for us to calm down. The percentage rate is flying high regarding substance abuse and how much it’s taking over our lives. Having too much of it makes us angry and not having enough causes destruction or confusing sadness that kills us emotionally. Some of us don’t even know that we’re doing this to ourselves. This can lead to mercy killings or violence. This is what destroys our inner peace and relationships. Was it worth it. I hope not because the last person you hurt last night is now an alcoholic. The one you laughed at, failed and now has a broken leg with no girlfriend to help because she just broke up with him for not being on the football team anymore. Who are you not to be?!! You’re supposed to be the best person you can be. But is it the best you can give to the one reigning above when your actions are vitally scornful and wretched. I think not… Maybe next time you will think about this when you want to hurt the people around you that’s already in enough pain. But that’s beside the point.