Who She Was

“This made me think of you” she would say

She would gaze at the dark picture for hours

Not wanting to forget a single memory

Getting lost in it

Neglecting the world around her

“I just want to grow up”

Now let her yawn:

Let the scream erupt and the eyes roll back

Let her smack her lips after she is satisfied

She would jump out of bed from excitement

Just to see her little hamster

“Awe chicken,” she would proclaim

Then immediately jump back in

As if nothing in the world mattered

Not even her

As her horoscope said, “Pisces, you feel most comfort and happiness in a creative setting.” In which she did.

She loved the city:

the mix of skyscrapers, little shops, Asian markets, and naked cats

She was a proud feminist and LGBT activist

She would bark at those intruding on those rights

She stood up for a guy wearing a Pikachu hat

Though she did not play Pokemon

She just knew how to be human

More human than most

She could smile after being damaged

She laughed after getting a harsh talking

He could tell she was lying

Not through her actions

But through her eyes

Just a solemn brown left there

Absorbing all light

All sadness

It suited her

She would sing to her capacity to Lip Gloss

And dance passionately to what she believed

Hold on, there is an incoming FaceTime from her

Okay, nevermind

She would take his phone

Just to play with the Snapchat filters

“Take a picture of my pizza, it’s smiling”

She would swiftly turn at the mention of Chinese food.

Mainly Panda Express’ orange chicken.

Now let her eat.

Now let her sleep, peacefully, alone.

What would I do

Not seeing her

Filling my day with joy

I would sulk away

Just as a wave

Retreating to the cave I came from