Why?

I get up and out of bed

Trying to forget the things that were said 

I try to believe the things I see

But I feel like there is no hope for me

When I heard the words from your voice

I realized you have made a choice

People say things will get better

But I find myself thinking of writing a will letter

I feel so emotionless

I can't take anymore of this pain and stress

Is my world falling apart 

I am left behind not knowing where to start

I was lost as a kid, Lost as an adult

I sit here thinking everything is my fault

I"m lost in thought, which I shouldn't do

It winds me up, I can't get through

Losing family. losing my place

Still yet I am full of hate

Have I been living a lie?

Sometimes I just wonder...Why?