Why?

I wonder why I do things I'm not suppose to Why I laugh at bad news? Why I hide the tears and let no one in? Why I have so many insecurities? Why do I have my self-esteem so low? Why can't I be as normal as you? Why keep pretending who I'm not? Why do I keep letting you bring me down? Why do I still care for you? Why do I do things for you when I said I'd never to help? Why can't you see that I'm a mess? Why couldn't you see that I was falling from all your traps? What did I do to have you turn your back on me? Your glares were enough to tell me I was no longer wanted. No one seemed to help me get up No one wanting to face you it was the fear of only losing you while they saw me drown in my sadness slowly drifting from the world Until someone was there to help me breathe once again See the best in the world taught me how to be strong again I was able to let it all go and move on maybe one day this will be behind us and laugh like we use to..