why

10:17pm

(10/12/2019)

maybe this is why girls can never tell niggas what they want to eat.

bc you feed us negative energy

and comparisons

like did i say

come here and tear down my walls ?

not the ones on the inside that you like to feel

but the ones on the inside that i keep safe from feelings

because they are my feelings 

and i’m trying not to become an emotional emotionless person

while trying to maintain this smile

but why.

why i gotta be everybody’s sunshine ?

why everybody thank me,

but ion got nobody to thank ?

why everybody turn to me and tell me they problems

but

i literally have no one.

why y'all always busy when i need you the most ?

oh sorry if i stepped on some toes

i think im realizing why i don’t rant

and you realizing that this is a partial rant,

 that’s why you not even gon read it through

that’s why i keep my emotions in

that’s why i care so much

this why i’m shutting down more.

and you tested my self confidence

i know it’s october so maybe that’s why a nigga ghosted me

why two niggas ghosted me,

keep it up ima have a streak with nigga ghosts

everyday i slowly tear myself apart

you slowly tear myself apart.

Jesus help me, please.