Why am I feeling this

Why am I feeling this way?

Why do I feel so alone?

The constant fear of never being good enough.

Anxiety swirls in my stomach just thinking about

the many times that I just wasn't enough by their standards.

Every inch of hope was squished when I would mess up.

and trust me, I mess up all the time.

Is my confidence a scheme, even I don't know.

Peace is a thing that I need.

I pray that it finds me,

estinguishing all of the worthlessness that I feel.

I really am in need of a touch from heaven right now.

the worthlessness is just climbing all around me.

Fear of not being enough starts sinking its talons into my eyes.

Lord help me not feel this way. 

take away this constant chaos that is ranging in my mind.

Be with me so I don't feel so alone anymore.

draw it out of me Lord. 

Draw the yuckyness out,

and in its place bring peace.

Just a breath of peace.