Why Don't I Love Me?

Because I love you, that’s why I stay 

You degrade my being, but I like it that way

I can’t see through the stone walls you hide behind 

Digging for gold where there is none to find 

Because I love you, I won’t seize to try 

I want so badly a best friend, an alibi 

What if you are my only chance

That’s why I wont let go no matter the circumstance 

Because I love you, no matter how worthless I feel

I can’t imagine loving myself once it’s revealed 

Perplexed with the idea of loving my being

I wish I knew how to see what you’re seeing

Because I love you, I hate myself

I burned the pages of all the books on the shelf 

Constantly changing in hopes you might say

“Please don't change, I love you this way”