Why Is This Happening to Me?

June 27, 2019

growing up as a kid

you always think the world is

rainbows and butterflies

nothing can hurt you

no bad can come upon you

your family is going to live together

for the rest of their lives

nothing's going to ever happen

until...

the one day that you wake up

and you find out your mom has cancer

she's not even 50

there's a problem with that

why didn't they catch it sooner

why didn't they do anything sooner

why is it this is happening to me?

I'm currently 18

I just got married

I'm supposed to live a happy life

they say she's got 6 months

well 6 months comes and goes

and you're still here

I get pregnant

you come with me to hear

the start of a heartbeat

but your heartbeat

ends 48 hours later

I'm not the same little girl

I'm not the person that I used to be

No matter how hard I try

I have to grow up

I have to realize that life

Isn't rainbows and butterflies anymore