Why I Write (Hand Therapy)

Once I start writing I just cant stop maybe I like the way my pen feels against the blank sheet or maybe I adore my pinky knuckle being colored by my pen's ink or can I blame science and facts as in why is my brain sending neuron signals to make my hand contract...grip my pen... then start writing again Eureka!... I got it!... Bingo! either way it goes I can simply blame my mind and soul my mind is filled with thoughts, ideas, and experiences some too hard and painful to express so I guess writing makes me feel as if my life isn't such a mess my soul is filled with pain past deaths, troubles, and mistakes Yes! writing is surely my escape most times words come out wrong when I speak tears quickly fill my eyes and sting as they roll down my cheek then a lump grows in my throat, "I CAN'T BREATH"... to avoid all of this, I write the pen and pad won't ague back or fight they will not judge, disagree, or disparage me in any way, but simply allow me to write what I REFUSE to say