Why Me?

Why does it have to be me
? To go though this
 Why does it have to be me
? Who can never show it
 I'm crying cant you see
 Don't you care about me?
 I lock myself in the bedroom
 I won't let anybody in
 Then I see it
 Perfectly sharpened in all its glory
 To help me,
 Release me
 Let me be free
 I take it in my hand
 Gripping it tightly
 Pointing it carefully at my wrist
 I’m going to do this
 I close my eyes
 Count to five A sudden pain
 Releases,
 I feel it trickling
 I look at it
 It's not to deep, but deep enough
 To feel
 To know I'm real
 I'm released
 And I'm not hurt
 Not in the least bit
 Then I sit
 Once again
 Looking, Thinking
 About what I have just done
 Just accomplished
 A small frown appears on my face
 Not enough
 A tear takes place