Why me.

In coexistence  with sweeties day 

With all the words 

I long to say

In all the time it took to 

Realize and cop with 

All your intentions 

I must ask why. 

Am I the idol girl in your fancy 

Or an easy grip to grap

From all the time we've silently 

Went past

Never thinking about a simple conversation or acknowledgment 

Or each others paths

Why was it me you 

Suddenly talked to.

Excuse me 

If  my curiosity gets the best of me

But I can't help but question you

Maybe I could understand  your intentions back then 

When I looked and played the part you desired

But now what is your reason

You always tell me that you want nothing more from me

Then just friends at best.

I'll admit that at first it was hard to accept that

Because I couldn't keep my mind from thinking otherwise 

So in order to protect my heart 

I disbanded our bond using your un pure intentions  as a reason

Yet you still came back 

Said I was the best you've had

And in a way

You wanted me back.

In my heart I never wanted to stop anything with you

In my heart I always kept hope for a further friendship with you that would go deeper 

Than what it has

I just wanted to grow closer

But I had to fall away.

Yet once I did ,you came back to me almost like 

All my goodbyes  

Were futile

You marched your way back into me heart 

And you never even knew it 

And even still

With every attempt 

I made to keep you out

You still 

Wanted to be back in

Always in denial 

Of how you made me feel.

This thing between you an i has become a constant 

Comfort and an issue 

And now everything is ceasing 

So my question now is

Still why

Why do u choose me

Just why

Do u like me?

Do u love me?

What do u feel that you won't admit to yourself 

But it keeps you coming back 

Or missing me or wanting me

When ever I go away. ..

What is it

And why me.