Why Mother Wasn't There

At a young age was just a baby, didn't even know how life works 7 years old, Cousin Sexually Abuse me, till the age of 11 thought i was free when my dad bought me here, 4 years later at the age of 15, he was gone things started to fall apart, got sexually abuse by 3 guys, While i'm screaming trying to fight it , crying for help nobody came to my rescue, Was Sexually Harassed so many times, hatred built inside me, i felt worthless, break down many times my heart started to disappeared, so much pains I was disgusted with myself, being loss in a world I couldnt understand, thought life wasnt meant for me, Drop out of school because my happiness wasnt there anymore , Tried couple pills to end my life none ever works, Cut my arm everyday to lose a lot of blood still didn't die, Take so many drugs to make me feel good, Sniffing Coke to put my brain at peace, I tried to hide the anger with the beautiful smile God gave me, but I was dying inside 2 Years later, I found the answer for my pains I opened up a book that teaches me every thing (ECCLESIASTES 3 , 7:3) I forgive them for destroying me 18 years now, they're just memories, all the fears are gone I am Stronger ,wiser and full of potential, Just grew up in a evil world