Why push

Why must I pushed 

Why must I make all good things end 

Why must I ran before it get beautiful 

Why must I fear 

Of what have not happen 

Why am I so afraid 

Why do I expect everybody to hurt me 

Am I to damage to be love 

Am I to much to deal with 

Am I really that bad 

Some reason I can’t sleep at night 

I don’t feel love 

I feel like the whole world pointing at me 

Everybody laughing 

Everybody pointing 

Troubles coming 

The storm is easing 

My children is dying 

I’m giving it my all 

& still depression sneak up 

It hit hard 

I fall down 

I cry 

I wanna die 

I wanna end it all 

But then my daughter came to me 

About her friend 

& all I could do was cry 

I had the same thoughts & couldn’t speak 

I had the same thoughts but couldn’t explain 

I had the same thoughts & didn’t even talk to her about it 

I wanted to tell I understand what she going thru 

But instead I just hold her & told her I love her 

I only could hold my child while I can 

Because I couldn’t believe children feel how I feel 

I couldn’t believe how these days get darker 

I see no body 

Just black 

No lights 

No shine 

No sunshine