Will I Ever Get Through?

Dear Daddy,

It has never been easy between us

Arguements about small and big things

Nonsensical things

You've never agreed with me on the things I wanted

The things I needed you to agree with me on

I didn't turn out to be the daughter you wanted

I don't love who I'm supposed to

I don't like what you do

I don't take it lightly when you don't listen

You never listen

But I'm always supposed to

I'm supposed to be your quiet daughter who listens

I'm supposed to stand up for myself

But never against you

It was always an uphill battle

Neither of us had the strength to make it to the top

Your daughter dreamed of a life when she, and mama, and you could get along

Dreamed of when things would be easy

She kept dreaming even when things got light outside around her

But she was trapped in darkness

She kept dreaming when she could hear you and mama arguing

Just like the two of you had not too long ago

Your daughter still kept dreaming

Love, your daughter

Who is still dreaming