Without you

I write like I try to not cry missing you at night I fight to keep my eyes closed tightly 'cause every time my pencil hits paper I'm writing about how bad I want you now am I allowed to love you from this cloud I'm floating on as time keeps moving on you keep proving I'm wrong with every bad thought I got nothing is not what I thought at all 'cause then you finally pressed 6 when I called saving my fist from the wall so now I'm able to stand and walk as I rapidly talk about how happy I am that I got you as my girl and you got me as your man I write down all these emotions that go through and hope she will understand you make me the happiest anyone ever has,  I just want to hold your hand so bad as you bring me home I just want to hear your soft voice when I  ring the phone I just want to put a ring on your finger so it's set in stone I just want to blow past this time alone and show you as I hold on to you that these poems aren't just words throwing   curves at you because even at my worst  I still hurt without you I don't curse I spit versus without you I can feel your pain baby it runs through my veins baby call me crazy but I'm crazy for you baby but after not hearing from you from a couple of days I feel my heart start to break but then out of the blue there you are as those feelingss escape me mentally making me straight shaping me taking me on the most wild ride f love id ever seen i can't describe or even come close to the feelings I feel inside for you can you but can you take this man to hold and to have through sickness and in health no matter how mad you can  forget his past no matter how bad 'cause even though I'm locked up this too shall pass i'm telling you right now you're the best I  ever had and that's just being  as honest as I can I have major plans after I'm released for you and I, I promise every promise to you I hold until I die I promise to hold on to you because your mine there is no amount of time that'll ever make me lie don't ever turn away and say goodbye because this is a real poem from me to you do you feel it too because I just want to cry without you.