A Wolf's Apology

Things usually feel better in the beginning But it didn't take long for me to see What I was trying to do was never me Oh how those lights danced and everyone smiled And the music blared and they all praised Your salvation is what everyone bent on their knees for But my knees never fell down Was I so wrong? But my soul was right? And I learned so many things Of course I took them to heart But You couldn't stop me ~God, can you ever forgive me for my yearning to be myself? Cause I only want to linger around your light But I don't want to be blinded ~'Cause I want to know I died Trying to save every prisoner  along side of me So smite me if You wish. But leave my people be ~Leave my people free All Your leaders and all Your followers They all felt dangerous I was a wolf in sheep's clothing And my fangs were making me bleed I'd bite down my tounge Before I could insult Your children But my presence felt an insult enough Wolves don't belong in a Shepard 's field ~God, can you ever forgive me for my yearning to be myself? Cause I only want to linger around your light But I don't want to be blinded ~'Cause I want to know I died Trying to save every prisoner  along side of me So smite me if You wish. But leave my people be ~Leave my people free I'm just a bad mother fucker Who tried to be a perfect angel But falling feels more exciting Rather than floating slowly  I could have been the better son And leave all these sins behind But my darkness is the drug I need To help me find sombody's cure Oh God, I swear I tried! But wolves don't belong to a Shepard Thanks for all You've done And I'll always speak to You I hope you take the time To answer this wolf's prayers So when it's my time to leave Know I did everything in honor For the people like me