Woman

I don't think you understand,

That this is who I am.

You don't see,

That this is how I feel I need to be.

Because if you knew me,

As something other than you know,

Would you want me?

No, and I'll tell you how I know.

 

If you knew me ten years before.

You wouldn't want me.

I know I wouldn't.

I was a bully, I was a jerk.

I was a little selfish,

Didn't see how I'd make others hurt.

You wouldn't want me.

 

If you knew me five years before.

You'd see I was making up for who I was before.

But then I became helpless in the mold I made.

I couldn't be anything more.

I was the person you turned to, I helped you.

But because of that I was used.

Because of that I turned blue.

Becuase while you could turn to me I couldn't turn to you.

I think that broke me, completely.

Knowing I was alone.

You wouldn't have liked me, because there was no one home.

 

I don't think you understand, 

That this is who I am.

You don't see,

That this is how I feel the need to be.

Becuase if you knew me,

As something other than you know,

Would you want me?

 

I am stronger.

I have grown wiser.

I have grown taller.

I am not the girl from five, ten years ago.

This is a new me.

Do you feel me?

I know who I am.

But there still is a mold that I'm trying to break through.

So the question is not do you want me, it's "do I want you?"

 

I don't think you understand, 

That this is who I am.

You don't see,

That this is how I feel the need to be.

Becuase if you knew me,

As something other than you know,

Would you want me?

Would you let me go?

 

And if you would,

If you think I don't deserve you because 

I'm a little broken and fierce,

A little scared, really strong,

A bit unsure, wise, and blue, but why is that so wrong?

The real question is "Do you want a girl, or a woman?"

 

I don't think you understand, 

That this is who I am.

I'm not going to change,

Because I'm already grown.

I finally love who I am.

So accept me or get lost.

 

 

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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