wonder

I look at you

and I cannot believe

that you don't know

can't feel

my depth of love,

cannot reach your

hand inside my heart

and pull yourself out.

I wonder feverishly

if I reside within

yours.

I look around and

it's dark but the

walls do not pound;

I know the answer

already but far

away do I push it

and wait

for some sign

that you have

let me in.

This continues

for as long as I

can bear it

and longer

until my lungs

are full of black

ink and yours of

my blood.

You are happy

and free but

I drown with

a smile because

you smile.