Wonder

I wonder what it’s like. I wonder if I’m different. I wonder if my thoughts aren’t other people’s thoughts. I wonder if there’s a reason I couldn’t have him. I wonder if there’s a reason why I can’t seem to find another him. I wonder why I dread it. I wonder why I am so far behind. I wonder why I feel left out and lost. I wonder what it would be like. I wonder what it’d feel like. I wonder what it’d taste like. I wonder why my heart’s beating faster and I feel like my bones are throbbing. I wonder why I’m feeling lightheaded. I wonder if it’s always been like this. I wonder how I can fix this. I wonder how I can hide this. I wonder why I’m so excited. I wonder what she feels like. I wonder what she looks like. I wonder what she could make me do. I wonder what she tastes like. I wonder if she’s the reason. I wonder if it’s her. I wonder if it’s both.