Wonderland

“Don’t worry. We can Maintain the condition with some medicine.”

Condition being my mental health, medicine being drugs that make me a zombie.

“Relax it’s nothing to be ashamed of, a lot of people have it”

A lot of people worry like this? A lot of people get nervous and freak out like this, look at me! I’m tearing at my shirt, tugging at my hair. Does this look like I’ll relax anytime soon?

“Healthy, you are healthy aside from the unique circumstances.”

Don’t say it doc..I already know...I live with it..

I need to find a different way of relaxing...a new way to cope...feeling like i’m losing my mind and crying because i’m freaking out over trivial things...when did i become a walking three year old?

“ You don’t have to worry, i have something to take the edge off man” my friend Jim tells me,”You smoke it. Tell me how you feel once you’ve tried it”

I’m home, looking at this bag. It looks like oregano. Did he give me a spice? Will this make me a zombie? Will this make me dull to the world?

It’s not amazing, this coughing though wasn’t expected ...the world is starting to relax..Is that there or am i delusional too now?,, What is this stuff? I feel so at peace. No worries, no screaming, no crying. I got through a whole week without a breakdown maybe i should call him and ask him for more?

“ Hey Jim, Yeah it’s me. I think it worked man. No freak outs, not no breakdown...yes please i’d like more, i’ll pay if i have to. What do you call it?...oh...Excuse me?..okay bye”

What did he mean by

Welcome to Wonderland….?