Wooden Door. Silver Knob. Twist
Wooden Door. Silver Knob. Twist torque.
White walls dark room svelte armchair, fireplace
Father sits in front, silhouette outlined by gold
Tension in air mother sits across from him
Crowded into a small ball, arms covering kneecaps
Come and sit he says, voice commanding
Comply with lips twisting in anger
Mother’s eyes twist away like my lips
What’s this I’ve heard about [insert passion here]?
He asks with a thin veneer of politeness
He always says ‘what’s this I’ve heard’
As a preface to questions he finds distasteful
Accompanied with a slight change in blinking pattern
His chin is high in the air, pondering my existence
The entirety of my being, how could I possibly be his progeny
How could I be his? When all my life he’s
Twisted shot down but encouraged me by
Living vicariously through successes
He’d like to claim as his
Billowing smoke from fire filters through chimney
Wallpaper creaks with weight of our lives
Happier days leached
How could I be his? When all my life he’s
Said I could do anything I desired
Even though I’m a woman
As if it’s a catching disease that
I must cope with like the dreadful cancer Mother contracted
It was all her fault of course
Her hair came out in clumps
Washed down the drain like a horror story
She's fine now in body but broken in spirit
Shown in the way her eyes fold and knees crumble
Beneath the intensity
How could I be his? When all my life he’s
Murdered my ideas in cold blood
Torn apart my passions at first sight
Scarlet bullet holes ripped through my heart
The leaves of the trees no longer grow in my spring
But are eternally crumpled on the ground
Brown and crunchy
He steps on them with his steel-toed boots
End the pain of being smashed on the sidewalk
Like a burnt out cigarette halfway lit
Arretez-vous!
Nothing, I answer. Nothing at all.