This world is so dark

This world is so dark and cold Filled with evil and Sickness, Yes there's Good in the world but This world makes me sick! I tried to end myself, Yes I use to be suicidal Don't judge Me ! No matter what i did God would't let me He's keeping me alive literally, He keeps telling me just to give up I'm gonna protect you no matter what I ask why do you keep saving me! And I get no response He's has a purpose for me What is it God whats so important for me to stay alive please tell me I'm tired of being around drama and so much hate and seeing blood be shed We are all living in hell right now some of us just cant see that How much longer do we have to waite for the rapture My lord