worst

A push on my head,

a shove in my skull.

disgust flaring green,

I am the worst.

My actions, my words.

They hurt and they scold,

they burn even me,

I am the worst.

Kind and gentle, kind and gentle.

Is what I aim for.

Too bad kind and gentle,

do not fit in my world.

I do things and regret,

I push when pulling back,

It is because I aim for fierce,

but a gentle soul I keep,

a horrid soul I test,

a pitiful girl,

mean and haughty,

I am the worst.