wrong lover

i want to say i am sorry, even though i had done nothing wrong. I wanted to just have been forgiven for nothing, only to be in your arms a fair night. Just to hold you, feel your heart beat through your chest and be appeased. Knowing that it would never last even if i held you forever, i'd still take the time for granted. Begging that you'd be rational, and for once take my feelings in consideration, even though you never attempted to do so before. Your distance gave me reason to interrogate, and realize, everything i could ever want is in you, but you have been hurt so many times, my efforts were futile. I'd been shut down by you the one i was too late to brighten.