Wrongs

When you committed that wrong, you wounded me. When you didn’t apologize, you stabbed me repeatedly. When you denied everything when confronted with that wrong, you lost my trust and my respect. When you do something wrong and you continue to act as if you're the supreme, you're only kidding Yourself. I feel sick when I'm near you because you're dirty in my eyes, and in the process, you dirtied me as well. I feel sick when I'm near you because I have to pretend that you're still something to me for the Sake of maintaining what I have. I feel sick that I betrayed my own beliefs, my own morals to avoid what I should have done, but I can't. Because you are something to me, even if I don’t want to admit it. I'm going to prove to you that I don't need you, that I can do perfectly fine without you, that you will come to Regret everything you did to me. I ask myself what do others see and this is what I see. He provokes me Why? Because I provoke him Why? Because I'm disrespectful Why? Because I hate him Why? Because he wronged me. But is that an excuse For the way I'm acting? It isn't. I tell myself I can't, I won't But everytime I see him, I can't stop myself Every disgust, every respite, every dissatisfaction, every sickening feeling comes up In the end, I will be no better than you To the person who told me to stick to my morals I'm sorry I couldn't do it I'm an hypocrite Thank you for being on my side To the person who told me to forgive I'm sorry, I can't and I won't To forgive, for me, means to let his wrong go But I just can't