Yet again

Yet again have I rolled over the cliff of dispare for yet again I'm in that pit which I yern to crawl out of but every stumble is aggeny and every depressing thought goes from shallow to deep pulling me back in and with my shattered this way I cant help but wonder if I will ever meet anyone genuine enough to pull me out of it cause it seems everyone I meet only fills me with greef , pain , and sorrow , is my life a disaster waiting to happen , is it just gonna collapse like last time giving me a front row saet to each heartbreaking event I venture into cause I just feel empty inside cant I ever find a friend who dosent want to waste my time using me to do their bidding