Yet to be Forgiven

Why did you do it?

Why did you leave?

Why did you leave me inside to bleed?

Are you happy with your life?

Without your children?

Without your wife?

Did you do it to put your strife at ease?

Or did she no longer make you weak in your knees?

Do you have another family?

Do you love them more than me?

Do you even know the damage you’ve caused to be?

Just a few thoughts that run through my mind

Wondering what my life would be like

Had you stood by

Maybe it would be better

Doubtful

Yet a possibility

What could I ever do with all this hostility?

Someone once asked me if I would look for you

Looked them dead in the eye

Spoke nothing but the truth

 Said If you couldn't try,

Then why should I?

All it would bring is pain and hurt.

How does it feel to just desert?

Did you stop and think or just run?

How would you feel

If I weren't there to shun?

Would you even go to my graduation?

My wedding?

My funeral?

Would you bring your family?

Or just soon forget about me?

Just a few thoughts that run through my mind,

Wishing that somehow you would just try.

Crying for endless hours of the night.

Begging to just be alright. 

If only for a moment,

I could repair.

To not be broken and left with despair.

If only for a moment, 

I could care.

If only for a moment, 

You could've been there.

No father figure

When I got my heart broken for the first time.

No father figure 

to hold me and say 

“It'll be alright”

None of this you considered.

And for that very reason,

You are yet to be forgiven.