You

You 

You are my fantasy guy

It’s still you and I still dk why 

At times I want you a bit more sexually

Honestly

And I don’t know how 

To express the feelings you give me 

So openly 

So sit back and read each of these words carefully 

Too traumatized to see anyone as my guy 

Heart’s been battered, shattered 

I’m on my own still learning to fly

But you

You ignite a flame in me 

A flame in me that makes me see life a little bit more clearly

From your eyes to those passionate lips to your unique demeanor 

I can’t keep this in any longer

Hell im just gonna admit it 

I still love you 

And I don’t know what to do with this

Old messages had me really thinking 

Did I make a mistake ?

Were we too late ?

Or was it just not our fate ?

All I know is that I can’t get you out of my head 

No matter the things I’ve said

I will always be your friend 

But this feeling gets very hard to deny 

Days with no contact just to keep my mind right

As I light this blunt tonight 

let’s dig a bit deeper alright?

I love your music 

It’s not like everyone else’s 

But most importantly I love your intellect 

the more deep and educated you are 

The wetter I get 

I love how hard you go for life & your kids

Whenever you’re in my presence I feel bliss 

I feel safe when you hug me 

Wishing you’d just kiss me 

Strip me

Taking all the stress and pain away so naturally 

You were right 

Always have been 

We are something special 

He was never you

He could never be you 

And honestly Idk who I’ve been trying to fool 

I don’t know if this feeling will truly end 

Or if you still feel the same 

But no more games

Secrets kill trust 

Our honesty is a must 

I don’t wanna mess your happiness up 

But I needed to get this off my chest 

So I do this how I know best

With some paper and a pen

Freeing my thoughts until we meet again