for you.

You're so beautiful, that simple word still can't describe who you are and how I see you as a person. But Jesus Christ, you're like an angel. I lack the vocabulary to even begin to describe you, I lack the honor of being worthy enough to have you. I lack the love that I wish I could give you. How can a specimen like me, have such a loving human being right by my side? Through the good, the bad, and what lies in between, it's been an amazing journey. Hand in hand we've held on this long. I do not wish for us to continue or for us to let go. You see what is a life with you? For you, it may be great. Or it might not. But either way, I always wish you happiness. A blissful type of sensation that just the exchange of a look can make you feel. That undeniable satisfaction that is felt when our lips taste each other. The comforting embrace of the warmth that would go throughout my body when we hugged. The intertwining of our fingers as we would display our little loving details for the world to see. Sweet, gentle kisses out of the nowhere to know that you care, to know that you're there. The way you look at each other with lust filled eyes. I crave you in the most innocent way. The way the dark relies on the moon for a beam of light. You see what is a life without you? Painfully Unbearable? Or the opposite? Either way I wish you complete happiness. I want you to be happy. It doesn't matter what I feel. I'm accustomed to the pain. I'm accustomed to the misery that comes with it. To describe someone, so perfectly viewed as I see you, would need more than a description, more than extensive knowledge of linguistics, more than a certain amount of time, more than a language to describe you. To be or not to be is always the question when times get rough. Why is it that when things get tough we are destined to make a decision that can make or break you? I want to be able to make you feel like even if I choose the wrong decision, I want to make sure you know how loved you are. and no not by me only, but many other people. Why do you fall out of love, to someone who you were hopelessly in love with? You make yourself fall out of love. I fell in love with you as time went by,and God was it something else. You gave me the world. You let me into your world. I became you're priority and you became mine. Maybe our love was to perfect? Maybe our love wasn't enough? I intend to keep you smiling even when I lose my feelings for you. I love seeing that smile. Have you ever seen a smile so sweet that can make you completely forget about everything else and you just focus on that person? Like they are the world and you can't admire them enough and in that moment you feel infinite. You feel weightless. Everything's ok when you make it ok.