You

You

4 years I relied on you

Started off so strong and so right

Not right, not healthy

You lied and lied and I knew you did

I knew you were a liar

But it was all harmless, right?

4 years I depended on you

My naivety, my longing

Made me force my eyes shut

To what I knew you would do

Not right

In the back of my mind I knew there was more

You were always there, no matter what

So nice, at least to me

Always understanding, you seemed

So strong, from what I’ve seen

Just right

I knew there was more

Not right

You played my kind of music

On and off, on and off the melodies rang

Even when the song changed,

You were still my closest everything

I knew there was more

I was always plagued with doubt

Yet I always trusted you

You set a plague of your own as you seemed to relieve mine

A silent and deadly disease

I trusted you

Even though I knew it wasn’t right

Honesty

Lack of honesty led to my broken trust

Broken trust meant a broken foundation

The foundation that caved into it’s broken side

Crushing me while you stand there perfectly

Not right

I have almost talked to you so many times

You’ve stained my head and damaged my heart

But my mind misses the image I made of you

And my heart, the feeling I had with what I thought was you

Not who I know you are now

Not right

You were never wrong

It was my fault we didn’t talk after that night

Proved you wrong?

Moved on

And now it is back to my fault

Not right

Told me I was the only one and always will be

Said you should have finally proved that to me

4 years

You only saw me

Suddenly you forgot about me

Out of the blue

Now it’s only her you see

And you never told me

You used me, so you didn’t feel lonely

Then left me feeling more alone than before

Toward the end you didn’t even try

You just tried to keep up with your lie

You cheated me

It was because of me

4  years, so short, had seemed so long

Started out so young

When you left

I told myself I only stayed with you

Because I grew up with you

Because you were the closest to me

Not right

You said you were sorry

I wish you were

Not true

You weren’t true

I should have been able to rely on you