You

You

You were scary

You were all powerful

When I thought you’d get weaker, you got stronger

I thought I’d finally escaped

I began believing what others told me

I started trusting again

I was happy, and then

You

You stopped me in my tracks

I wanted to believe you didn’t have the same power over me

I had new friends now

You weren’t the only person in my life anymore

I had people that told me I was beautiful

Not just you telling me I was worthless

You

You were the first girl I ever loved

If you could even call it love

You were the girl that made me realize made me question

You were the first girl

And sometimes I have to remind myself you aren’t the last

You

You were the first person in a new class that smiled at me

You were the first person who I trusted

You were the first person who wanted to tell me secrets

Little did I know you were telling them about me too

You

You never invited me over to your house

You never introduced me to your brother

You always had plenty for everyone, except me

You

You were the first person to call me ugly

You were the first to tell me that others would be better off without me

You

You spread my secrets, while yours still are tucked away in my mind

You

Maybe you just weren’t what was best for me

You

But god sometimes I still crave you

You

Crave your giggly laugh

You

Crave you by my side

You

But I have new best friends now

Not you

And I have a new girl to obsess over

Not you

One who actually cares about me

Not you

And now I don’t need you

As much as it hurts to say