You are not Him

You are not him

He told me he loved me

But didn’t show it

You don’t say the words

But I know it

You show me you love me

With every day you say hello

Every night you say sleep well

Every hand hold and hug

And every time you told me

Exactly what's on your mind

He showed me love

By leaving me alone

Isolating me from my world

He didn’t know

What was on my mind

He said “let’s run away”

You asked me to stay

He taught me to hide my darkness

Ignore the demons

You showed me

How to set them free

And destroy their reign over me

You are not him

When I hurt,

you healed me,

He hurt me.

And i'll never truly escape his pain

You promised me honesty

And gave it to me

He promised me honesty

And gave me a broken world

You waited and asked me to wait

For the day

We always talk about

He forced me

To make that someday

Today

He told me only he could love someone

As broken as me

You said you were lucky to even have me

He broke my heart

And gave it back

You held my hand

And pieced it back together again.

I needed him

And he needed me

Without each other we fell apart

I don’t need you, to live

And you don’t need me

Which is how it should be

I’m happier with you

But alive without

You are not him

And I am now me