You are the Reason

Numb. Blank thoughts. Unable to move, I feel paralyzed New scars adorn my body, and with them new memories. I want this to go away. All I see is blackness, with no light at the end. There is no way out, or so it seems. Food has no appeal, and sleep is a nonexistant thought. There is a hole in my chest where my heart used to beat. Now there is nothing, only silence. Mistakes are a part of life, but what if life is only made of mistakes? This bottomless pit slowly consumes me. Maybe I'll hit the bottom if I stop breathing, it sees like such a good idea sometimes. No more pain, no more thoughts, Just quiet sleep that lasts forever. And when I think it's my only option, your face appears behind my eyes. The reason I am feeling like this, yet the reason I am still hanging on. Breath escapes my mouth, for at least one more day.