You Can't Explain It

You can't explain it,

It's not a feeling rather a mental illness.

You nor I  understand it.

I can't help but to follow people,

I think their awesome friend,

But then you tell me, "You have no filter"

You make me feel like I'm stupid.

You dont understand,how hard it is to talk to people,

Let alone to make new freinds.

It hurts me more and more each day of my high school years,

I'm not like the other kids,

I never will be like them.

It stole my teenage years,

You stole them.

You hurt me and now all i dream about is those days

The day you raped me,

The day my dreams and hopes were lost,

The day I became different.

On top of you and it,

I was diagnosed,

with Aspergers.

My life changed more in those months,

then ever before.

You cant explain to your teacher,

Why your lip is swollen and cut,

You cant say I got a terror last night and I bite it.

You just can't,

You don't want their sympathy,

You just want to be normal.