You Can’t Love Me

My Love,

Lying in this bed I’ve made 

There is nothing left to say 

It's because of me that everything's this way 

Regrets of the past, fears of the future 

The guilt inside growing like a tumor

As the end creeps up, sooner and sooner

Slowly killing, the silent abuser 

Pride lifts and puffs to heights above all

Until all that's left is the biggest of falls 

Crashing and burning everything I once knew

Until all is ashes and I must begin anew 

But where do I start? I have not changed

I’m still the same man, I’ve turned no page

The scars from the fall still scream my name

Yet I don't listen, waiting for a new game 

Abandoned by all, I can see my plight

I always thought it would never happen twice 

The pedestal broken, I want to submit

But my mind is the only unforgivable sin

It returns to what I was always trying to flee

Now just a shadow of everything I will never be

Only Cold, hard, shallow...empty.