You know who you are

you were always the first person i went to when i felt happy or sad

i love that i felt important and that i was the one you told everything to

few years later you tell me about a new friend you made

couple weeks later you tell me that you guys have been getting closer

few months later i'm crying uncontrollably in my room

realizing how effortless it was for you to push me away 

i've never told you how i felt because i still wanted you in my life

even if you didn't want me in yours.