You Needed

You needed stupid. 

Stupid enough to believe your throne of lies. 

To worship your sins and glorify your violence. 

you needed meek and timid

but fiery and hot 

a mouse in garish red. 

You needed a painting to show off

but to shove in a closet when you grew bored of looking at it

knowing that it would always stay there

No. No longer will I be that painting. 

I am a lion and a mouse,

working in tandem 

I am beautiful and frightening

I am a force. 

I will dress in red, but for myself. 

I will be an animated, 3 dimensional person, 

lashing out and I will not apologize. 

I will not stay silent and sit but 

stand and roar 

and you will know me. 

I will know me. 

I will see that this is what I needed.