You Stay

That feeling is such a wonderful thing, as you cross go. You believe anything they say, even lies, lies, and more lies. Love paints this definition of perfection. They do no wrong in your eyes. You will allow them your tender heart to break. For this love, it is so deep you cannot let go, and will take either their indifference or fake words. Anything, for this true love. You can ignore that they perceive you as a game. And time by time, you are played, deftly as a bow. But with time comes contempt. Separate souls twist and mix, become the same. Can you truly not see how it all turned out this way? You cannot even recognize your eyes in the mirror. Yet, your devout love, though buried, has not swayed, in the face of the humiliation or the pain. You never ask if you would find greener grass for what you pay. It is because of the thought floating just in reach, ‘we are one and the same inside.’ The perfect other half, all forgiveness and gentle words, that refuses to leave. With time, things change but stay the same for you. That in which you valued is no more. You have become like your beloved, just as scorned. For, you can no longer distinguish between the love you started with and the hatred you are bearing. Any words that unbalance this—this tiny paltry fizz of feeling, you refuse to let go. Even as heartbreaking words gain volume inside your heart, almost like an overflowing teacup. The years have continued between you two, with all the bitter and salty unspoken words not shared. With closed windows, you let in nothing new. You cry inside, silent, and cling to memories you create to stay strong. Case in point, back through the years past, love that was not meant to be is held tight in your hands, for better or worse. You never forget your first love.