You think you are better than me?

“You Think You’re Better Than Me?” -I Bled myself out for you w/ Hope as ya left me bleed in Misery. -I didnt relent when It came to show You your worth, your value & all That ya mean to me. -You Promised me time was all you need,..thats what I gave...with space..., after all that was yur plead. -Still I persevered in faith ironing out every crease.. and I helped you back to your feet. -I prayed day & Night it seemed endlessly on bended knees Through all the pain though more than just a breeze It made my bones brittle & Agitated & Still i never seized. Despite the silent screams and broken dreams I dreamed and grief I grieved. My skin began to tare like my soul from the seams With an Endless flow of emotion as it seemed would flood through the window pain of the soul .... a steady stream ,as u just let me bleed. .But the cost of love as I agreed would not & does not come free and it definitely does not that easily in my minds eyes with heart and soul all I could see was your breath taking smile and your eyes staring back at me All this for no respect and treated like a disease? Ya know When u throw all this dirt on me its like you’re trying bury me? -I Tried to show you you’re better than what you claimed to believe yourself to be. -Then somehow in my faithfulness i found truth as it be -all my efforts devoted to bring peace endlessly where all diminished & distorted discovered to be Falasies It’s true deadliest Disease I asked God to let me carry your burdens so you could see All the beauty that you say you couldn’t see. Within yourself amidst the darkness and the epitome of the endless pit in me That you let dwell inside and relentlessly spewed all over me. There’s no wonder your so lost in the dark baby You locked yourself in and forgot the key Its because of the darkness you find yourself alone But now that you found yourself just thought you should know. That in your selfishness I have found calamity and M.I.A Is the love, you Neglected cheated and always blamed me. You made a Calamity out of what coulda been a family I tried to fight for what was right but you only saw Negativity and Listened to fallacies that stretched across the galaxies. You brought in so much poison and I could curse you destroy her and a family our son you kept from me. The plan from the start that’s what you wanted it to be ’now I’m U wanna throw dirt on me? - ok that’s fine I’ve worn this "Cr👑wn of Filth" for many years of my life. . But I'd rather not. I'd so much rather be the king of the Empire where the Queen of my life/my wife /you reside.