You Will Never Understand.

Honestly, you will never understand what it's like.

You will never understand what it is like to replay it over and over in your head even though you were not there. You will never know what it is like to stay up for nights wondering what you could have done. You will never know what it is like to have this image you had turn into the complete opposite. You will never understand how wet my pillows were every night and how stiff they were every morning. You will never understand what it is like to wake up hoping it was all a complete nightmare. You will never understand what it is to go on for weeks without eating because your heart is taking a physical toll on your body. You will never understand how my chest felt as if a hole were just blasted right through it.

You understand how much it took for me to forgive you with every single piece of my soul. You understand how much of my pride I had to demolish. You understand that I still think about it now. You understand that it still hurts as if it were yesterday. You understand that what you did was wrong. You understand that you will never hurt me again. You understand that you love me more than you thought you did. You understand that you will treat me better. You understand that will never risk losing me again. You understand that I am choosing to stay with you.

But you will never know that I do not love you anymore.