Young and Foolish

what would you do if you were me with a boyfriend much older than a girl of 14? one that expects almost everything from you most people would say "leave" from their point of view. but what if you loved him with this deep sort of passion would you leave him then in such a quick fashion? if he asked you to marry him in a future so near would you say yes if your love was so dear? in spite of what he says when he's upset you too would love him still more, i'd bet though sometimes i dwell in the vagueness of doubt i wonder, "does he mean what he says?" then i pout. i think of it now and what streaks my cheek but a tear... there are many girls from which he could choose, and what dwells in me now is fear... if he so chooses to leave me for a girl more fulfilling, 'tis then he's commited a crime for killing. for doing all this, you might say to me, i'm insane, a lunatic, a maniac, a kid. but the truth, i would say, is i could, i would, and i did.