Your Allowance Costs

i'm someone who's been made to feel. i'm not afraid to trust in my turnt out self. earning my own trust took me respect and self-dignity. i'm up to go impossible depths just to show myself the faithful devotion it takes to instill the trust i need to continue choosing me. And i'm more certain to trust ourselves over anyone else who wants otherwise from me. And this usually sounds something like this.... for the one's that call me "too much" while calling me out as "not enough".... what's the difference of what you think of me and what i think of me? turns out that recognizing my good thoughts, my good words, and my good deeds determines how i walk in a day, not you. i choose for me when i allow you ME cuz it will cost you in the end to lose me more than it'd cost me to lose you. when i'm never lost of myself then i've never found i need you more than i need myself. i've made my choices. will you ever?