In Your Own World

It’s an uncontrollable thing

To fully understand what it does to you is

Pretty Big…

It washes over you like a tidal wave

in your own little world

drowning you with nothing but darkness

and Loneliness

you walk and walk in your own world

in a confined hallway

getting smaller and smaller

the deeper you go

looking for a way out

looking for a light to lead you out

you try to catch the shadows around you

Hoping for them to lead you out

Hoping they would understand what things

go through your head

in this state

they try to talk to you

but you can never hear them

in your own little world

My heart aches

drained of all its life

struggling to beat

even though it’s damaged and hurt

it tries it’s hardest to keep my alive

sometimes I hope it would give up

give up finally

I’ve been living too long like this

and my heart knows it too

it’s made worthless attempts to keep me breathing

it’s been going on for too long

My rotting mind tells me

“Just die already, nobody’s ever gonna love you. No one needs you.”

maybe someday I’ll give in to it

but my heart yells at me

“DON’T  GIVE UP!! There’s still hope for us.”

my heart has done too much for me

more than I could’ve asked for

more than I wanted

my mind drowns me

anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, suicidal thoughts

stepping on my heart

forcing it to quiet down

my heart cannot save me

from my mind

maybe someone else can

The one person that brightens your entire day

their beautiful smile brighter than the sun itself

THEY’RE THE WAY OUT

THEY’RE THE LIGHT YOU NEED

TO ESCAPE

out of this Eternal Darkness…

you’d think being in a state like this

you would never find anything

that would give you strength

to keep living on

the feeling when you see them

that feeling is completely unexplainable

it completely takes over you

every time you see them

you just can’t resist at smiling back

you hope one day they will see

what you struggle with

and stand by your side

and care for you

they’re the way out

of this little world of darkness

and loneliness