You're Not There

It feels like you are here Sitting right next to me. But you are over there Leaving my heart heavy. But I do not mind it at all honestly As long as we can talk like we always do. You are a close friend who makes me quite happy. I swear it's like you're filling my mind with you. You never heard my cries, my sobs, my agony I show you simply things that gives a good smile I rarely tell you of my mind's cacophony And yet you ease my wounds from a distance of miles. But there are days I can't speak Days I don't want to come out. Maybe it's because I'm meek. In the end, I want to shout. I'd tell you but then I realize One, you're not here by my side Two, I have I fed you too much lies Three, it's hard since there's much I hide But somehow, you are always there And right when I need you most too. You know when things are hard to bear Too bad distance won't let me hug you. It's just a bit disheartening, you hear? Because you are all the way over there So far instead of being somewhere near. I'll just accept that you cannot't be here.