You…you were right

…fine…? I admit it, I do have Trauma, And…I really am hurting, And I really am lonely all alone, So… what do I do, HUH….what can I do, I feel so pathetic, I feel so dumb, And I feel so cold, It’s as if I have no one, I-, I JUST, I never wanted to get traumatized, I never meant to hurt myself so bad, I wanted to just love, Love someone, To love myself, …to find someone just as loving as me, But after everything, All I have are cuts and scars, Things that make me look so ugly, So I’ve learned to say things like, “It’s better to not believe” “Better to quit now then later” But it’s such a dumb mindset, Yet it feels as if it’s all I have left, I wonder, Will anyone ever save me, CAN anyone save me, As much as I’d love to have hope, It’s hard when you’re me, When you’ve faced the world at such an age, An age where you’re meant to be dumb, Instead you’re writing and playing games, The games for adults. -Kitsuko Dragonstar