Learning to Fail
I wanted a thing
Anything
So in my life I only had one thing
I was the nerd
The kid with the answers
Ask a questions and he’ll get it
Smartest kid in the class
Sharpest tool in the shed
Math, Science, History, English
Please
Can I have a challenge?
Can anyone look me in the eyes without flinching
You might have been the smartest where you came from
But no more
I could smirk as I left another in defeat
Always find a way to demonstrate my superiority
Until I couldn’t
Until I wasn’t the smartest anymore
Until I was always being challenged
Until I had to work
In math, science, history and english
Until I was just too slow
Just couldn’t understand
Just one move behind
Just a little bit too stupid
Just a little bit too dumb
Just a little bit too unaware
broken
A year of failures
Filled with pains and loses
Day after day of fearing the next failure
Breaking me down
Piece by piece
Then I remembered why I started to learn
Learning not to be the best but to be know
To know why the world works
How to understand everything around us
Learning not to get into the best college
But because knowledge is divine
I no longer need to see tests as obstacles
But as steps in a dance