The Gold Medallion
The Gold Medallion you wore
big, shiny, and you
You wore it everyday
Jesus in middle to assure a long life of happiness
I remember our last day together
How I felt you right next to me even though you were laying down
How tired you looked
Then you just left
It was in that moment I realized I didn't lose you the day you died
I lost you the day you had forgotten my name
My face
I didn't lose you when you took your last breathe
I lost you when you looked at me as if I was a stranger
I wish I could turn back time and save you
Save you from the prescription with your name on it
Filled with chemicals
I blame them
The medicines that were suppose to keep you here with us
The tests that were almost postive you were ok
The doctors who said you were fine
I knew you weren't
The look you gave me everytime I said hello
When you said you were ok
It was a silent cry for help
I should've known
I should've been by your side everyday
I hoped for the best but only the worst came
I miss you so much