Internal Sickness
im sick of giving false loyalty to people ,then they leave me dry all on the floor.
Im sick of having the ability to forgive but not forget .
because every time i see you yeah i smile but its the hurtful moments thats kept.
Im sick of the old me.
Where i used to call and be silent just so i could hear you breathe
Possibly your last breath.
Because honestly every night i would call on the lord and just wish for your death. as pathetic as it may seem .Im sick of myself .
And all the anger that was inside of me
i had to mature to realize that forgiving you meant that i would be free.
Not physically baby just psychologically.
Because your existence on earth was constantly irking me.
But now that I've moved on
its fine. Us on the same earth you see.
But keep in mind that every time you see a picture of me and him.
That couldve been you and me.